A prayer for not wanting to be alive this way anymore.
so how do you want to be alive?
I don’t necessarily
Want to be dead,
I just don’t want
To be alive
This way
Anymore.
This feels ridiculous to say
But today,
May I be grateful
For not wanting
To be alive
This way
anymore.
Let this death
Of who I thought I had to be
Allow rebirth
Into who
I get to be.
a prayer an image from my forthcoming book In The Low.
I’ve been coming back to this prayer often. The words and the image.
I love the center of the image… because I don’t know what that crazy space is. It can be anything really.. and that is the point of the art.
For me, it’s the “shoulds”.
I should be this far.
I should be doing this.
I should be better.
I should have more faith.
I should be somewhere else.
That is a fairly daily death I tumble into.
And when I go through that painful unaccomplished “should”, I find myself on the otherside of that failure invited into a new life, really.
A life beyond shoulds.
A friend/coach encouraged me recently that the greatest loss in my vocational life would be to lose the work that you love because you thought you needed to focus on the work you should do.
Any of that resonate with you?
IN PERSON THIS THURSDAY, VANCOUVER WA
if you’re in the area… you should come!
